Am I Wrong???

There's nihilness
All around -
Up and down,
Left and right
Am I wrong
If I say -
This is my life,
My days,
My nights...

If I draw
A night sky
Somewhere dark,
Somewhere grey,
Moonlight -
Perhaps my life
Has never seen,
Hence a long wait
It has been...

My beautiful garden
Flower-less,
Yet forever green
How wonderful
Would it be
If I paint the
Beauty of flowers
Atleast in my
Sleepless dreams...

I hear
The singing bird
It's not as sweet as
Last summer
It flies, it chirps
Still I miss the wonder
As if its heart holds
Unmeasured pain,
Not pleasure...

It is true
Life has no mercy
If it's there -
How hard
Could I try,
How far
Could I go,
Why can't I find?
Why can't I see??